The adoption process is hard core.
From the very beginning it has pulled on my heart and soul in an intense way.
I've had to learn how to constantly give these emotions and stresses over to God. (May 2014)
We are so thankful to be in this final stage of bringing our daughter home.
God has revealed His steady presence in the most amazing ways - things we knew in faith have been brought into plain view.
But, this part of the journey feels like the steepest of hills.
God's faithfulness and sovereignty are all that truly sustain me at this point.
It feels like scaling a cliff with a load too big.
The weight.
The weight of not holding my daughter and wondering if someone is.
The weight of her fragile heart being broken by the confusion and changes in the coming weeks.
The weight of my other three sweet hearts.
The weight of being the mom my kids need - now and coming home.
The weight of papers and papers and approvals.
The weight of "snail mail".
The weight of normal life and no pause button.
The weight of a massive trip with a multitude of details.
The weight of wanting a travel plan, but waiting for the plan.
The weight of waiting.
I am literally clinging to the sovereignty of God moment by moment.
I am tremendously thankful to finally find our sweet Sofi.
We will have her home soon, and God's faithfulness will shine through.
And, though it is tough to need so much so often, my God is big enough.
Nothing will stand between Him and what He has purposed for our daughter.
God is bigger than government approvals.
God is bigger than costs and payments.
God is bigger than travel itineraries.
God is bigger than this mountain.
God holds Sofi when I can't.
God is healing and will heal.
So, I pray.
I pray and I pray some more.
We all pray.
Please keep praying with us.
Pray for Sofi.
Pray for God to hold her.
Pray for God to bless her with special understanding of love and family.
Pray for sweet dreams of her family that she would even recognize love when she meets us.
Pray for the details. -
The dot-to-dots that connect us from here - to China - to home.
God hears and He answers. He is sovereign.
He is truly the King of the World!
